The Story of Brittany

: aLL b'Cuz 2 pEopLe feLL iN loVe :

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 02:19:19 GMT

Haven't been on here for a LoooNg time...

Life is really a.m.a.z.i.n.g!! I am back into church.. although I won't be there this week because I am going camping with my family, neieghbors, & of course joHn!

Things with us are going veRy well, for those of you I don't ever get to talk to anymore ::cough cough:: JeNeLLe.. hhaha I am very happy all the way around with how our relationship is... ask me for details! ; )

I miss you neLLe!! We have to fiNd time for each other!!

bUrger K!ng has also decided to consume my life again.. I do get this weekend off but I don't get Labor Day off.. of all the days.. ugh

Oh well... I hope everyone is doing well.. I love you guys!!

Life..*

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 14:52:58 GMT

She says don't stare at me
She's afraid that I might see
Those 5 extra pounds she talks about
I don't know what she's talking about

She looks through magazines
With every page she d.r.e.a.m.s. of
Looking like somebody else
I wish she wasn't so hard on herself

Then she falls asleep with just my t-shirt on
But even when her hair's messed up and her make-up's gone

You can't hide beAutiFul
You can't hide woNderFul
There's nothing that she has to do
It just comes natural
She makes it look easy
I love what she does to me
No way to disguise
The way that she shines
You can't hide beautiful

She can take a simple dress
Put it on and turn some heads
Everytime she moves she gets me
She doesn't even know she's sexy

And the way she thinks sometimes
Out of nowhere blows my mind
She makes me laugh and makes me dream
I love the way she looks at things

A little piece of heaven god gave to this world
She might think she's just an ordinary girl

You can't hide Beautiful
You can't hide wonderful
There's nothing that she has to do
It just comes natural
She makes it look easy
I love what she does to me
No way to disguise
The way that she shines
You can't hide beautiful

So a little less than a week until school starts. Summer has really flown by. I've actually done a lot this summer it just doesn't feel like there was enough time. I've been shopping a few times though.. the best thing about going back to school ;).

I talked to Lisa the other day. It was nice to finally talk to her. We are going to have lunch sometime this weekend so we can catch up.. this shall be the longest lunch ever I have soo much to tell her and she has been in Africa for twenty something days so I'm sure she has some stories.

I have been working soo much lately. I needed too after Kim didn't put me on the schedule at ALL the week before in three days I think I worked well over twenty hours. It's not all bad though I've been working with Tiff n Alex a lot.

Well I'm going to go. Love you!

::iTs bEEn aWhiLe::

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 15:05:06 GMT

My life is pretty GrEaT rite now. Except I haven't been to my church in 3 WEEKS that is so crazy. I've gone to Park Chapel the past two weeks because I haven't had a ride and my moms car is messed up some how. Geesh I need a car so bad. I miss everyone!! lisa comes back from aFr!ca Thursday!! yay. I miss her a lot.

I finally got joHn to go swimming yesterday! yay! It was a lot of fun. We played monkey in the middle with his brothers. I think we are going to do something with maTT & k!rStEn today. I'm not sure yet though.

School clothes shopping on friday!! This is the only part of going back to schOOl that I actually like. Ugh it is coming up soo close but I'm half excited because I'm ready to get jUn!or year over with and be a Senior.. but then again jeNeLLe and tiFF and everyone else is graduating this year and I don't want them too!! ::tear:: haha

Well I'm about to get into the shower. Love you all!!

:+: taKe mY breaTh aWay:+:

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 16:59:06 GMT

So me & joHn are back together again. I'm soo happy about it. He is too!! Me, HiM, tiFFany, and aLex are going bowling tonight which we haven't done ALL 4 of us in a very long time!

Anywoo I got back from the lake yesterday and man am I burnt! haha It hurts too but I do think that it is turning into some what of a tan.. well for me anyways haha. I loved every minute of the lake though. I like getting to know new people. I also found out that I have a huge fear of cOyotEs.. haha

Well today I have to clean because some of my family is coming over this weekend and so MoM is going nuts. ha.

The Lake

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 15:33:54 GMT

Well things are getting interesting in my world!!! Haha! I don't know what to expect outta HiM but I'm still holding on to it.... a lot.

I'm leaving for the lake for 3 days.. no work til Saturday!! woohoo! I'm getting so sick of BK!

Well this was kind of pointless!! Oh well!! I'm sooo HaPpY 4 u jeNeLLe!! I love you!!

WoW...

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 00:25:42 GMT

So last night was interesting... JeNeLlE finally got back from camp. She had a great time though so that's good. And I got to hang out with her and Gabs which I haven't done all summer. We went bowling with some New Pal guys.. which was wierd and scary.. but I did end up having some fun. Plus I bowled a 153 which is my highest game EvEr!!! ::pats self on back:: ; )

I worked at BK from 8-230 today it wasn't all bad. Me and Tiff worked together so it was fun. Although she is stupid!!! But I love her. Anyways HE came over and we watched a movie and then went and ate. I had fun. I talked to Matt though. I am sooooo stupid for putting up with this crap but its ALL my fault. I am soo looking forward to church tomorrow though although I'm not quite sure how I am going to get there : )!!!

Welp K!RsTeN is about to come over!!! Love you!

Got this from one of JeNeLle's friends... wow does it decribe me..

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 14:27:17 GMT

teLL me how this is fAiR!!
good intentions won*t change
anything!! this could be the
last day that i hold my breath,
and wait for you..*
-daphneLOVESderby-

~FrIeNdS~

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 20:57:37 GMT

I don't know what I would do without my friends!! Me n Kirsten hung out yesterday after I got off work. Went to eat.. took pictures (haha).. then watched a movie. She probably heard enough stories about HIM to last a life time. I cried A LOT last night. We went to BK to get an ICEE and then HE came up there. It was just wierd.

So today I went and played Tennis with BrItTnEe and we went swimming. I had a lot of fun. We talked a lot and she completely knows what I'm feeling because she is too. haha! It's awesome. So now we are "calling buddies" so we can try and move on. We are going to TRY to go on a double date with these guys from Mt.Vernon. She amd this one guy are already kind of "dating" but he has a friend. So it could be fun.

My mom got a new car today. I get to drive again!! yay!!

Well my mood is tonz better. Give me a call if you wanna do something tonite!!

Me.. Care?

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 21:31:52 GMT

Why should I care if you, found somebody new,
and you look like you're in love
And why should I care if she looks a lot like me,
And she's all you've ever dreamed of?
I didn't care enough to keep you around so tell me
Why should I care now?

I was the one who let you go,
I never told you that I loved you,
I couldn't promise anything
When you needed me to
oh, my heart was never really there,
So why should I care,
Why should I care?
I just do

So why should I care if I
Mean nothing in your eyes
What you felt for me is gone,
And why would I feel that way,
Now that it's too late,
To change what I did wrong?
Oh I didn't care enough to keep you around,
So tell me why should I care now

I was the one who let you go,
I never told you that I loved you
I couldn't promise anything,
When you needed me to
Oh, my heart was never really there
So why should I care,
Why should I care?
I just do

Better...

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 00:46:32 GMT

Well today was suppose to be my day to sleep in.. but I got called in to work at 11... lol Imagine that. Burger King consumes my life these days. But really it is helping me get my mind off of HiM. I haven't called HiM today which is a big surprise for me.

Anyhow I just got RiTtErS!! Haha I made Alex take me after we went to look at his new car that he should be getting. He needs one. The Piece of Crap dies at every red light now. So its getting bad.

Well I'm going to go do something. I have to work at 9 in the morning. Fun Fun. But atleast tomorrow I get to work with someone I actually talk to! Yay! lol

Fresh...

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 19:12:08 GMT

Yesterday didn't go at all as I planned. AlEx got back at 1 but his piece of crap car wouldn't start. (we all four love this car by the way haha). Anyways so HE came over and we talked. For the first time we actually made some sort of progress. In a fighting kind of way, but it still felt good to get some things. Anywoo AlEx didn't end up getting to my house til like 330 and HE had to be back by like 5 or 6 so HE didn't go bowling, but me tIfFaNy and AlEx had a lot of fun. Although I lost horribly but my mind wasn't in it at all.

Today I didn't go to church. I feel bad, but what happened, happened. But we all four went fishing at 7, drove out to Hooters Downtown, to New Castle and then back to AlEx's house and watched UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL which is a wonderful movie I just love. And I actually decided then to try and get over HIM. It's only been like an hour since I haven't seen HIM and I already want to call but I'm not going to. I'm just going to move on and if HE decides that HE wants me back we can go from there, but I don't see that happening any time soon. But oh well. I'm not crying anymore.I have my friends to help out. Although Jenelle is going to be gone all week!! I wish I were going to Royal Family. ugh.

having a broken heart isn't any fun

Boys...

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 13:55:36 GMT

Went to Kings Island with Tiff yesterday. It was sort of a last minute thing. I didn't know I was going until Thursday night. haha. But we had fun. I saw Ryan and Tracy and Reagan, which was very wierd because both me and Tracy were just at Kings Island last Wednesday.

All I do these days is think about Him. I hate it. I try to stop but I can't. On Thursday I downloaded a whole bunch of songs that remind me of Him and some that are just very easy for me to relate to. One is I Hate Myself for Losing You by Kelly Clarkson. It's really like a biography. lol.

Today Alex gets back and we are all suppose to go bowling. I'm not sure how its going to work out. I'm also not sure if He is going to go. Ugh!!! It kills me that its all because of HER. But really its my fault. It would make it a lot easier if I could blame someone else besides me. But I just can't.

Kelly Clarkson - I Hate Myself For Losing You Lyrics

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no

I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you